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Name: Sarah
Location: New Jersey
Interests: Anything music, really... clarinet, piano, singing, plays. i'm also into debate
Expertise: being a dork, of course
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Member Since:
6/11/2004
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| hooray for talent time.  it keeps me happy. rehearsals started about a week ago. it's great being back.
good people + good show = talent time this year
during so pac, i didn't really have fun because i wasn't really doing anything. i just got to walk across the stage randomly. where's the fun in that? now during guys and dolls, i'm doing more. i get to be sad! ecstatic! and doubtful! it's so much better.
i can't wait to have rehearsals again. tt is starting again and that makes my summer soooooo much better.
okay i'm done gushing now.
-a very happy mission doll/ bobbysoxer
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|  « me(as if you didn't know)
I woke up it was 7
I waited till 11
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think i got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone?
When your spending everyday on your own
And here it goes
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight...
And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed
Staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time, I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own and here it goes
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
What the hell is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me tonight
I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I'm just a kid tonight
sorry to be slightly depressing, but it just kind of fit right now. and some of you may laugh at my use of simple plan lyrics, but hey, it was just perfect for right now. becuase certain people are getting on my nerves about certain things.
certain person A is completely insensitive. they may find me not caring that they have a certain problem. all i will have to say to them is "you know what? leave", their absolute favorite thing to say to me. some of you may know who this is, but most of you will not. i'm hoping you don't know them because then you can consider yourself lucky. and don't think i'm being too bitter about this person. i've put up with this for three years because they can be a good person, but lately it's gotten worse. and i've realized that it's just not worth it because they must not value the fact that i've been there for them. so i'm kind of just giving up. and if we're meant to be friends, it will have to come from them.
certain person B is just oblivious. just plain oblivious. they just don't understand me. and personally, i want nothing to do with them. but they don't get it. so i'm stuck. at least for right now.
so, basically, i just want spring break to be over. i just want all of this to end.
so why can't it?
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| no, i didn't die.
nor did i fall off the face of the earth.
i've just been VERY busy. now, perhaps not so busy as to not write in here, but i prefereed to use my time for other things. like actually getting sleep. enough said.
so "south pacific" is over now. i think it pulled together when it had to. in a way, i'm kind of glad it's over. it was hard balancing everything. plus, there were entire practices where i did absolutely nothing. of course, on the other hand, i'm going to miss the people i don't usually see. thank you to all of you who made the show more fun. it wouldn't have been half as enjoyable without you, especially my "family". christine- "i think my accent just changed!" haha good times.
so the play ended and then my eye got sick. (and yes i mean it) it sucks so much. i can't wear contacts for a few more days and i just feel all bleh cuz i'm sick on top of it.  i say eyes should never get viruses. the world would be a better place.
(and i promise i won't wait another 3 months to write in here!) | | |
| so...
insanely...
confused.
enough said about that. laura knows what i'm talking about. i just can't seem to make up my mind. 
saturday night was fun. except for the making of a blackmail picture. evil people. haha oh, and then there was the tennis ball (that hurt!  )and the singing.
halloween itself was pretty boring due to biology. i had to outline an entire bio chapter instead of going to my friend's party. turns out i didn't need to have all twelve sections done by monday. i was just supposed to get a descent start. substitutes lie.
today was okay. i had to wake up at five am to finish my history map because i didn't have time to finish it before 12:30 am last night. me and my perfectionism. oh, well. i got it done. and i think my brain still worked during my geometry test today.
practice was extremely short. possibly the shortest rehearsal we've had this year. it was probably due to the fact that we couldn't function that well without a quarter of our band. the spacing was funny. because we got done so early, i got a chance to talk to my "mommy". laura, it helped but as you probably read above, i'm still undecided even though i'm leaning slightly.
long weekend! yay! this would be even better if i had lots of stuff planned. it figures- the weekend i have the most homework, i have things to do. now i have lots of free time and nothing planned. if anyone feels like gracing my weekend with your presence, call me.
DAYS TILL SEEING ANNA: 10 i can't wait! omg i get to see my sister!
*pretends to stutter* that's all folks!
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| wow! it's been a really long time. now i have to update for practically the entire month of september. let me see.... things i have done since september 1(in no particular order):
~started high school- first day of school was interesting. the bus never got there, so i wound up running back up my street to get my dad. he drove, like six people to school that morning, which is probably illegal in some state. hehe other than the first day, high school's been pretty good. i'm starting to get used to my lovely fourth floor locker. oh, that and being squished between people i don't know. my teachers are mostly okay.
~switched math teachers- this is the third time in three years this has happened to us (being jess, rachel, pablo, and my other B people). now it's post, who got in a car accident, leaving us with, yet again a sub for an extended time, and after that a completely new teacher. deja vu! and guess who my "newest teacher" is. dr. croley, who was the first one to leave us in seventh grade. i blame her for the trend.
~finished confirmation- yay! i'm finally done with all my classes and i passed my test! 96 *does dance* now i can rid myself of my classmates who were, as many people know, all a year younger, boys, and from nutley. need i say more? so now i'm getting confirmed on sunday.
~went to my first competition... an odd experience. it was at vernon and there were only four band including us there, so it seemed really tiny. it was a lot of fun actually being watched for once (what a concept!). and i was on the other side of the competition. (i went to all of the ones my sister was in.) i got kind of mad because i wasn't over by the plume bag when it was opened and some squad leader that was a little over anxious to get it open broke the zipper. so now we have one side of a plume bag entirely open. and amy, bonner, and i had to keep our instruments with us because we couldn't go back to the bus.
then there was the final realization that dr. mac really left bloomfield for another school. he came into our stands and was talking to us. jamie and i were talking about how we don't necessarily have the same kind of connection everyone older than us has with dr. mac, but we're still upset. i mean, we've both known hime for a really long time because of our sisters but i've always felt as if i don't have as much of a right to be upset as everyone else does because i never had him as a teacher. in any case it was an emotional experience. and then we heard the scores- excellent which was just about how i expected it to go, because there are still a lot of problems with lines.
on a lighter note, the ride home was interesting. first, before we left the parking lot there was the Randolph guy... those of you there know. then our bus broke down, so we all squished onto two buses. i wound up sitting in between laura and joyce. laura was on the isle, so i kept having to grab onto her arm to keep her from falling off the seat.
~said yes to going to homecoming with mike. so yes, all of you who asked, i am. and for those of you who didn't ask, now you know. i can't wait but i'm kind of worried because i still have to get a dress and i only have 11 days left and absolutely no time this weekend. because...
EM's COMING HOME! i can't wait. yay! i'm going to have a sister again! hehe mega gab fest.
i'll try to be better about posting, especially for those of you (em, laura, etc) who scolded me for not posting for over a month. so here is a super long post to make up for lost time. | | |
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